Maybe I'm CRAZY... IDK... probably....

The last thing any women would EVER want a man to call her is CRAZY. 


Yeah, some women do crazy things for men they so called believe they in love with but really are they truly in love...are they truly CRAZY... I don't know ever woman on the earth but I do know a few that have been called CRAZY, LOONY, PSYCHO or even FOOLISH and they have incredible stories... now these women are WISE and INSPIRING. 


These women inspire me NOT to make their mistakes and not to act CRAZY just like men expect us to. 


Sadly, I don't have stories of me breaking dishes, busting windows out cars, lighting houses, cars, or clothes on fire... or anything crazy like you see in movies or hear in songs. 


My life's not that kinda exciting and I care too much about what people think of me... but TRUTHFULLY, I have thought about that crap. 


I think every woman has thought about burning a man clothes cause they all smelled like the girl next-door perfume but, only a few have actually done it. I called them women CRAZY & BRAVE.. cause I would never do that stuff... the thoughts that would be popping in my head would be of course "$" signs & jail bars... I'm about to be a college graduate with no job YET... I need all the money I can hold on too, and I'm too pretty for jail. If I get place if jail, then you will def see a CRAZY side of me... they would give me a straight jacket and sent me to INSANITY... shame I know.. "Oh Mind of Me"


But anyways, overall, the last thing i would want to hear a man call me would be CRAZY cause I'm not & never will be... I just won't let that happen. I am FUNNY, CREATIVE, AMBITIOUS, BEAUTIFUL, INSPIRING, and many more... but I guess you could tell that through So This is How I Feel....  Women or Men don't let anyone get you to the point where you are losing your mind or where you they you just might be crazy. Sing Cee Lo.......


~Ash~

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CONFESSIONS: I Never...

I feel like playing the game I Never... but with a twist..lol

I Never...

I never kissed a girl & never will...ewww

I never played the lottery & I'm from Florida

I never been to Europe but I have dreams of London

I never have gotten drunk

I never liked snakes or mustard & I never will

I never been pregnant

I never been inlove or maybe I'm denial

I never watched a history documentary without falling asleep

I never pole dance or belly dance but I want to try it

I never thought saggin was sexy

I never read books & finish them but that's gonna change

I never been fishing

I never scoopa dive, sky dive, or bungee jumped

I never smoked a cigerette but i kinda want to puff on a cigar

I never had my heartbroken til now

I never had a dog name Iggy

I never dreamed a dream & it don't come true

I never thought i would be 23 & not legal

I never thought I would know all the wonderful people i know

I never knew i could turn something thats that was meant to be negativie into a positive

I never doubted God

I never thought blogging could be so fun

Ok I'm done

Wendy Meets Casper pt 1

What YOU so scared for

Booooooooooo

Ain't Ghost suppose to be..

HARDCORE?

But,

YOU have no soul,

YOU just a spirit that needs to find home

And that's why YOU so cold

Transparent without a backbone

Flying around downtown

trying to steal the hobos' home

Yelling booooooo

thinking people will notice YOU

But,

Do they?

No

They only see through YOU

cause you're a ghost

Yes

They hear your booooooooos

And Wooooooo they scared

Maybe

Even feel you a bit,

that ain't ________

YOU ain't Real

or

Are you ?

Must be

Cause I can see...

YOU

And I don't know why

Or

Have a clue

I feel like we are playing a game of peek-a-boooo

YOU hide,

I seek

And then I find YOU

Why do YOU

come & go

What YOU scared for?

I Can't Help What Flows out of My Soul onto the Screen

So... I wrote a poem yesterday while at work. I was bored doing the same ol same ol crap.. so I started writing and that topics of women questioning themselves came out... People always ask me where , I get my inspiration from....YOU of course &...

* Ladies & Gent that I meet on the street
* Friends & Family
* Music & Movies
* Other poets & Famous people
* Past Experience that I know or want people to relate to...
* ME - Lots of time Me inspires Me

Many people always think that everything I write... it's "All About Me" personally.. actually, I like to morph a bit of me and other people into the people that I write about.

Overall I love inspiring others, being relatable, and uplifting. I feeling like I'm making some sort of difference with a click and a button.

~Ash~

Sometimes you just got to Lego

So... I had to much fun writing this.. I keep on laughing every time I read it.
Hope you enjoy it!!











What I Do....?

What the hell happen here
I'm tyring to retrace my steps to see
what did I do to make you disappear

Was it my breath ?
I did have a chill dog
before I kissed you
Sorry
I should have warned you
OR
Was it my new hair?
I thought you would like it
Cause I got that curl and flair
Just like that girl I saw you eyeing from over there
OR
Was it something I said ?
I know sometimes I can run my mouth
and say all my thoughts out loud
Without thinking cause I be clowning around
OR
Was it cause I didn't get in your bed
And give you head...
69...
Kama Sutra intertwines
or let you lick my behind
OR
Was it my clothes
Some say I dress to old
Not my age and I should be a bit more bold
OR
Was it ME at all
Was it just your time to go
Maybe so
I don't know
But what I do know is
A women should never ask herself this many question
If she does then it's bout time to
Let Go

Why? Why? Tell 'em that..... it's Human Nature

So..
I'm still awake but I'm bout to go to bed in a few. When my mind is going usually, I like to keep to myself but tonight, I let loose and talked with (2) of friends (1 male & 1 female ) on a situations that I thought I would never understand till now..

Tonight.. or may I say today I have 2 questions & they all begin with WHY?

(1) Why do WOMEN let MEN control them ?

(2) Why do MEN act like JERKS once they realize they have control? lol

The answer to both of these questions is simple We... WOMEN let them. I have these discussions almost once a week and it's always the same answer. I truly believe if we women would stop saying We are fine when a guy ask "how we are doing" then we would resolve alot of problems and confusion. Women don't be afraid to tell your dude that you hate his stinkin guts... ok you might not say those exact words but don't be afraid to tell him how you feel.. it will actually help him understand you better.

Overall Honesty & Understanding is key in any type of relationship. Be upfront & No sugar coding... Just be Real & transparent.. No hiding.. Ladies stop being PUNKS

Ok I'm going to bed.. here's Human Nature by MJ. Good Night !!!!

So...My WORK is trying to TALK...?

When the moon sets
And the day is done
And it's time to rest
Will you still think of me
while you dreaming dreams
to be the best all you can be.
I know you will
Cause I'm always on your mind
All the time even tho you sometimes
leave me behind.
You always come back.
Matter Fact,
I know you doing fine.
And I will be o.k.
Because I'll see you from 9 to 5.

~Ash.Jak~

The Mind of a Women : Jealousy Pt 1 The Other Woman

WHO IS SHE ?
I seen you with her last night
She looked like the type you'd like
I don't know WHAT"S GOING ON
I just want you to tell me WHAT"S WRONG
With ME and U,
Is there something I need to do
LET ME KNOW
Now back to this hoe
WHO IS SHE ?
Where did y'all meet?
Did U take her to the place where U sleep
Or some where fancy out to eat
Tell ME
WHO IS SHE ?
I need to know IMMEDIATELY
OH..
SHE ya NIECE
Oopps My bad
Well... Excuse ME
I'm SORRY, baby
I love U

~Ash.Jak87~

Wow... I have to see that movie again

So right now after seeing For Colored Girls, I have so much to say, so much to address. It's kinda time out for holding back now... I freakin feel like I can do anything or say anything. I am a freakin woman here me roar... I'm ready...Omg was that a freakin tear... well I am a woman but anyways I have more of me to come.

To Lie or To tell the truth.. This is not a question

So..
It's about that time that I tell you how I feel
Let me tell you what's the deal
Either you want to hear the truth or a lie
I promise what I have to tell you wont make you die or cry
It's only the truth
Yeah, the truth hurts
But you got to have it
Right ?
Yeah,
Some people say they can't handle the truth
But you got to deal with it
Right ?
Yeah,
Telling a little fib is so much easier
Right ?
WRONG
Lying takes so much from u as a person
that it is so uncertain
that you can be trusted
Hmm,
Interesting
Right?
when you lie
I don't cry
I actually laugh
cause you only fooling yaself
which makes you deaf to the obvious
which is so Reality
Come back to life
Stop lying
Yeah that's Right :-)

Sometimes I like to RUN & HIDE..

I know that I'm grown;
pretty eyes,
thick thighs,
nice behind,
But sometimes,
I like to run and hide
Away from those things
that scare me
or that are exciting
Oh my gosh,
I feel so weird inside
Maybe I need to scream out loud
So I can finally release what
all this is all about
Yes,
scream out loud and shout
to get rid of all this self doubt

I know that I'm grown;
pretty eyes,
thick thighs,
nice behind,
but sometimes,
I like to run and hide
From a lover
I like to duck and cover
so, I won't mess anything up
or have an eruption
or that fearfully miss communication utter

I know that I'm grown;
pretty eyes,
thick thighs,
nice behind,
but sometimes,
I like to run and hide
from the challenge
that I have to face day to day
but is the time right
maybe I will like...
or NOT
We will see,
Alright

I know that I'm grown;
pretty eyes,
thick thighs,
nice behind,
but sometimes,
I like to run and hide
from things that are new
Cause I don't have a clue
of what to do or how to move
Or how to feel
because I'm scared that it is real

I know that I'm grown;
pretty eyes,
thick thighs,
nice behind,
but sometimes,
I like to run and hide
from
YOU

India.Arie - Can I Walk With You

Hmm, that's LIFE

When there is ALOT on my noggin, I go back to bloggin...

I want MORE
But maybe MORE is to much for me to handle right now
Well, in this lifetime
Right now,
Right here,
I want so much
that it sometimes brings me to tears
Tears of frustratingly waiting,
And anxiously patenting,
the way for my future to come to past
At last,
it finally seem as if I am getting some where
Near or far
My heart is definitely with the stars
that shine so bright
Oh yeah,
that's what I like
I can hear it now
My name being shouted some where over there in the limelight
The lights that are so bright
that you automatically forget who's in sight
You stop caring about what's wrong or right
And just start doing whatever you feel you might like
Hmm, that's LIFE

Lesson : Be anxious for nothing, all things have a season, time, and purpose in your life, all things are not given to you all at once.. they come in portions... and Never carry a heavy load that you can't carry alone

~Ash~ (Patience of Virtue, Lil One)

Kisses

My kisses don't lie
My kisses don't cry
When you leave them abandon and torn
My kisses want MORE
To give more
Because that's what they adore
My kisses ring bells
To cast spells upon the man
That we adore
My kisses dance around
in circles
They never settled down
But for romance would soon be found
My kisses get rest on your cheeks and chest
Its been missing your lips for weeks
Hmmm.... is this a test ?

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Who knows...

Listen
I love you
but I'm not
inlove with you
Yet
It takes much more
for me to just fall
into your arms
and let you sweep me off my feet
May, I Repeat
I love you
but I'm not inlove
with you
Yet
you got to come correct with action
Cause action speaks louder than words
Something you should have already learned
I'm inlike with you
That's a fact and I know it to be true
cause you are my dude
and I can't get enough of you
You make me dream about being inlove with you
One day
Some day
maybe even Monday
but for now I will stick with this strong like
unless you have something to change my mind
you just might
have something to change my like into love
I don't know yet
but I am willing to stick around to find out.

Inspiration: Natasha Bedingfield's Who Knows --> I love this song.. but I love this album :-)


~Ash.Jak87~

The groove of my heart

I hear a beat
I listen
It tell me to pay attention
to all I see
and all I hear
and all that I been missin
This beat goes
pump pump
then it goes rump rump
It makes me wanna jump jump
but not like Kriss Kross
but like me when I find something
so intriguing
This beat comes from my heart within
my skin
which sometimes feel so thin
cause I might wear my heart on my sleeve
which makes me go off beat
or lock my heart up and throw away the key
which makes the beat sound so silently
As you wouldnt hear a peep or a sqeak
I need this beat to keep pumpin louder
pumpin louder
till I can't bearly speak
hmm that's the groove of my heart

~Ash.Jak87~

This is "The Truth"

I wrote this poem in July and for got to post it. It's titled "The Truth" and it's about a young lady that needs to tell the guy that she is inlove with the truth about her feelings towards him.

The Truth
There is so much I need to tell you
So much I need to express
I’ll tell you these 3 words
And maybe the problem will be put to rest
If I say…
I love you
You might not believe me
You might think I'm faking the funk
Just trying to put you on a leash
So I can get close to your trunks
End up pregnant… hmm to start a family
Maybe then my fantasy will be complete
or
If I say...
I hate you
You will say why
There's no reason for you to sit here and be mad and cry
Girl bye, stop playing, you acting like you bout to die,
Just sayin

And then I will say
Listen
All I want for you is to understand
What I need is my man
The man that I met years ago
Hmm where did he go
I feel like you are never there
You like a ghost that comes and goes
That magically appears and disappear every 5 minutes like Go daddy Go

I miss the laughs and smiles
Where did they go too
Hmm… maybe they will reappear while I’m finally telling you the truth

Excuse me can I talk to you for a second….

Women vs. Women - Haters LOL

Hmmm let's see where this takes me...

Topic: Hatred: Women vs. Women

Yeah, I see you
I see the way you looking at me
Staring at me
Like you want me
Or something
I ain't no dessert
Or nothing
Well, not for you anyways
But for real tho
why you all up in my grill
please, honey child tell me what's the deal
what's wrong
Maybe we can sorta this out
Figure it out
Cause there is defiantly a problem here
You come around with them evil glares
Them snickering snares
I know what you up to
I know what you about
And I'm bout to let you find out
Yeah I see you
Now we making eye contact
You see me and I see you
Yeah that's a fact
Come a little bit closer
so we can finally meet eye to eye
And then maybe we will realize
all this hatred that we have deep inside


Disclaimer: I have no hatred or beef between any other woman on this earth...I think LOL... I just like to tap into the mind of people. But anyways, it makes me laughing inside and out, how our minds work as women. When we see another woman and she might dress a certain way or talk a certain way or she might even look at us the wrong way... we automatically assume that she is "hating" on us. Shame on us!!! We got to get it together :-)

~Ash.Jak87~

Thinkin...

So This is how I feel...

I feel alert
Awake
Ready to do somethang
Ready to see new faces
And feel warm embraces
I'm ready to do what I do...


Today is gonna be Grant...

But anyways tonight is Poetry Night and I have nothing to write... so I'm kinda doing a little confused grin. Hmm we will see what will come to me in the knick of time......

~ASh.Jak~

I hate brain farts.... :-P

Who cares.....(Thoughts) Pt 1

So this is how I feel..

I am lost in a thought
but yet happy
I am sleepy
but yet awake
I am excited
but nothing is happening
I am ME...

I am really intrigued by the thoughts of others.
I remember once in my life I actually want to know what everybody was thinking but then I thought to myself, "Dang, that would be alot of thoughts... hmmm can I handle all that thinking.." and then outloud I said "Who cares.." with a smile.

Come on now... be for real now... who really cares what people think because at the end of the day you are gonna do what you want anyways... that's really how it works.
It's remarkable!!!
Ok I'm going to bed

~Ash.Jak~

Man's Perspective #3

The Artist

I am an artist
Drawing and painting is the way I speak
You see what you see
You feel what you feel
Through my creations that I give
Thoughtly misunderstood you may take me
But I am just like you with only my canvas to protect me
---> Writer's Block... must finish tomorrow :-)

My Best Friend : Justin

Best Friend

I tell you to shut up
But I really don’t mean it
I tell you I am mad and want to scream
And you tell me to Scream then
Get it all out
Scream and shout if that will make you feel better
And it actually does
You know me so well
It scares me sometimes
it make me swell up inside
But then I think to myself
I’m thankful
Always thankful to have you in my heart
You are always near not far
Well yes you are physically far
But it never feels that way to me
Cause you are my best friend
Justin
Hey that rhymed
lol

Man's Perspective #2

The Distraction
I am Driven to Succeed
I am determine for Greatness
I want more than I can handle
But I keep on going cause I know
there is a purpose for everything
Everything will workout in my plan
If I continue to be this man
that I aim to be
Nothing can stop me
Nothing will stop me
unless...

Wow
who is that
She says her name is Deliyah
and well that's a fact
she whispers in my ear and ask me if I want it like that
and of course I say yes
Can I have it like that
and then she tell me to follow her
She will make my dreams come true
Instead I tell her to follow me
Home
so we can do the do
Indeed she made me an happy for the night
but the very next morning she was out of sight
along with all my stuff
Wow I really called my bluff
Deliyah was a man eater indeed she was
I will never forget that she devil and her devilish ways
If I ever meet her again in my day I will...

Wow
who is that...

The Distraction

Man's Perspective Take 1:

Secret Admirer Pt.1
I see her walk back and forth
Forth and back
I wish I could stop her in her tracks
To ask her name
and maybe see if she will play into my game
See if she will fall into my love trap
that I preset so nicely here in my head
Maybe I can get her into my bed
Nah, she's not that type of girl
She that "take home to mama type"
Hmm, that's the type I really like
But will she notice me or..
am I the type of guy that she will like
I guess I will never know until I say Hello...

Hmm, why do we keep on Going Around...

So since I am awake at this hour I might as well write "a little something something..."

So this is how I feel...
Sleepy but yet AWAKE
Hungry but yet FULL
Questionable yet I know..I know the answers
and HMMMMM..... with a big :-) lol

That's just how I feel at 6:30 in the A.M.well TODAY :-P

But for real though, I have alot on my mind, that I must express and the only way I can think about expressing it is this way...

Round, Round, Round we go
we keep on going around
Till we get dizzy or fall to the ground
we keep on going around

Should I go this way or should I go that way
We keep avoid the sound,
the voice,
the answer,
You know you hear it but you keep on going around...

(In other words, on a daily we overlook many things that are alway in our view. When your overlook something or someone you are not challenging yourself, you have actually told yourself that you are WEAK and wont except the duties that you must take care of. We must stop avoiding things or people that challenge our minds or hearts.. somes you just have to do it... get it over with.. ya know)

Dawg, what's on your mind... 6-23-2010

Tell me what's on your mind

and I will do the same.

If you tell me you're doing fine

then I will know who to blame.

What actually does fine mean ?

All I ask is for you to explain

You say fine is fine,

why do you complain?

I complain

Because...

The truth is all I proclaim

I feel like you are hiding something

which is why I am going insane

You are not the same I tell you

You are not the same

You stare me right in the face

Tell me I need to find a place

So I can chill and calm down

I say ok

But with a frown

I settle down

~Ash~ (Finished 1/5/11)

Something OLD...

I wrote this the second week of July. I was really frustrated over some crap that it was keeping me up at night.. hint the title Frustrated for the Minute

Frustrated for the MINUTE 7-8/10
So this is how I feel..

Frustrated, that I am
I wish i didn't give a... rhymes with spam
I want to fly away to a world where there's no return
this place is a land of peace where nobody cries or burns
I want to jump up for joy or scream out loud
But for real tho...I really don't want to make a sound
or peep,
I just really want to get some sleep.

*************************************************************

I wrote this back in June, it's pretty short in sweet.

Inspire Me 6/23/10

Inspire me
Jump
Scream
Do the darn thing
Make me laugh
Make me cry
But please don't make me
Die inside


~AshJak87~

Sorry... I've been M.I.A.

So Last week I realized that I haven't posted in a long time.
My last post was June the 30th so I got to get back on it.
So I think I am gonna start with posting some poetry I wrote for me and
Justin's Untitled book. And I am going to post some new stuff also:-)

~AshJak87~

I love Bruno Mars

So this is how i feel..

Bruno Mars

So every since I've heard of Bruno Mars on "Nothin On You" and 'Billionaire." I fell inlove with his song and he seems like an awesome artsit, which is true.

Bruno Mars' real name is actually Peter Hernandez, he is 24 (10/8/1985), a songwriter and a producer. He came from a musical family giving him a diverse mix of Reggae, Rock, Hip Hop, and R&B.From a young age, he was impersonating and performing songs by influential artists such as Michael Jackson and Elvis Presley. In 1990 Hernandez was featured in MidWeek magazine as "Little Elvis".

I also found out that he co- wrote "Right Round' by Flo Rida. He also has a solo album that came out in May, (where was I LOL) It's titled It's Better If You Don't Understand. This album is also produce by a production team that he is apart called The Smeezingtons. The album also features artist such as B.o.B & Cee-Lo



Click this link to hear Bruno Mar's Album
It's Better If You Don't Understand by Bruno Mars

THIS IS me

This explains well part of me LOL
There is more to me that meets the eye
I love Fantasia.. and this jam is hott

Fantasia Barrino - I'm Not That Type

I love Lyfe Jennings Pt 1

So this is how I feel...

I heard this song last week on the Quiet Storm on V103. I was like WOW... and this is why I love Lyfe Jennings cause he always tells the truth... I needed to hear this right now. Cause I just been iffy lately.




and then there is Busy... i love this single (This is the reason to my Iffiness LOL)



Ash.Jak87

Travie McCoy: The Manual

Ok, so this is one of my favorite song from Travis McCoy's album Lazarus, which I love and you will too. This video is crazy but i wouldn't expect less from either T - pain or Travie. So watch and I also post a link for the album, so you can check it out. And that Young Cash guy can sing.... and that kiss... WHAT!!! Just watch :-)



Go head & Listen... you know you want to... you can't help yourself (Click the link)

Lazarus album by Travie McCoy

~Ash.Jak87~

Goofy Mornings with Ashjak - Pineapple Theft LOL... I LOVE you Ari :-)

Hmm what to blog about..



HERE IS THE EVIDENCE...She just looks so cute eating my pineapples out the can... she could have got a bowl or something... she looks so cute tho.

Anyways this is all fun and games, I'm not mad at my sister at all... she got hungry... we all get hungry sometimes... NO.... ALL THE TIME... it's only natural... it's a way of life.

But there are some people out there that would go crazy if somebody ate there food. Like this guy...


LOL That was funny, right..

Don't eat my pineapple..

UPDATE.. UPDATE...


~Ash.Jak87~

Men Step up to the Plate... Women Stop Compromising

Tag your it... Tag your it...

Hmm the good Ole days.

I remember back in the day... well, not my day but when my mom and her friends were growing up... there was this thing called "THE CHASE"

For those that don't know what I am referring to, let me help you out.

THE CHASE: When a man pursues a woman of interests that he want to date and eventually marry.



Now in days, it seems like the table have been turned or roles have been reversed or GUYS ARE GETTING LAZY... hmm I think I am gonna go with the last one. But I don't completely blame the fellas on this one because women we are making it TOO EASY for them.

GUILTY: I admit i have done this before many times when I have liked a guy strongly, wanting to be close to him and wanting to spend all my time with him which most of the time he doesn't deserve it at all.

Today, I was talking to my mom and I had made a joke about a friend of mine that I felt was potential (I was serious, but I wanted her to think I was joking... but she saw right through it... which sucked.. Role of Thumb: You can't trick your mom.. she knows everything... but anyways. She told me what i have been hearing forever, that if a man is really interest in you and wants you for himself, he will chase you. This man will hunt you down if he's really feeling you.

Women: We as women sometimes compromise and we just shouldn't because we can have what we want... just got to be patience and faith that God will give us what we been crying out for

* Make him want to come see you
* Don't tell him every single thing about you at once... leave some mystery.
* Don't RUSH, go slow
* Make yourself available, but not so much that to him, it seems like you don't have a life outside of him
* Tell the truth and stand up for yourself NO COMPROMISING


Men: Come correct!!! If you are really feeling these women like you says you are do all you can to keep her happy with you.

* Stop being lazy and go get your woman, the best one is not just gonna drop like an apple from a tree
* Give her some attention or at least let her know that you care by adding her to your daily schedule
* TALK... don't let her do all the talking
* MEAN WHAT YOU SAY either face to face, on the phone, via email or text

But for real tho, Overall Relationships aren't as hard as we make them, they are actually a bit fun and exciting when it is with the right person.



Let go back to the backyard, where things were simple...

~Ash.Jak87~

New Artist: Aloe Blacc

New artist... well to me... I just found out about Aloe Blacc yesterday at work. I love his sound and I love his single "I Need a Dollar"...



Songs by Aloe Blacc

Just listen and enjoy.

Sidenote here is something from me

Don't Doubt... Figure it out 

Dreams are not meant to be stuck between a head and pillow 

If you have them go for the gold 

Go for what's down deep in your soul 

Let the spirit within you take full control 

Don't doubt... don't waver or fret 

I believe you can suceed in what ever you believe.. hmm that's a bet 

So man, women, boy or girl, don't sweat 

Don't doubt 

You are going in the right direction 

You just have to figure it out...... 

~Ash.Jak~

Remember the Times... I miss you MJ

Wow, I can't believe its been a year for the death of MJ... Michael Jackson. I miss him so much, I love his heart and passion for people and music.

Favorite Michael Jackson songs



Off the Wall
* Off the Wall
* Don't Stop Till You Get Enough



Thriller
* Wanna Be Startin' Somethin'
* Thriller
* Beat It
* Billie Jean
* Human Nature
* P.Y.T. (Pretty Young Thing


Bad
* Bad
* Dirty Diana
* The Way You Make me Feel
* Another Part of Me
* Man in the Mirror
* Smooth Criminal (Annie Are you ok... as I like to call it )
* Leave Me Alone - (I like to turn this jam up real extra loud when I don't feel like being bothered by the world... thanks MJ)

Umm I think you can tell which albums are my favorite LOL.. that's like the whole albume.


Dangerous
* Jam
* Black or White
* Remember The Time
* Who it It
* Will You be there (I love Free Willy)
* Dangerous

And then there is also
Scream,
Blood on the Dance floor ,
They Don't Really Care bout us... I can go on for days about MJ...
oh yeah Butterflies.


That's just a few of my favorites... MJ you will always be remembered by me

~Ash.Jak~

Relationships & Facebook.. Think before you post

Ok so I viewed this video last year and I thought it was ridiculously funny because it's so true. Sites like facebook and twitter have been messing up good relationship, well at least they appear good for years. Watch this video and enjoy!!!

Facebook messes up relationship



So I admit to your all that I have been a victim of facebook and twitter. When you get to personal with social media, it becomes a part of your life. And that is why I believe everybody should limit their time with social media especially when you are dating or getting to know a person that you are attracted to. COMMUNICATION is KEY.

* Try checking your facebook at least once or twice a day.
* NO after midnight facebook chat with anybody... that can get you in trouble. Better yet GO to bed (You will be safe that way)
* Be mindful of who you ADD
* If you are dating someone or getting to know someone be mindful of what you want to be PUBLIC ... it can cause anger & jealousy
* Have respect



Overall THINK BEFORE YOU POST... just saying

~Ash.Jak~

What is on Your mind... I promise you can tell me.. I won't get MAD

Ok this has been buggin me lately. Ok everyday, I learn a lesson about the way "men think" either it's from a few of my guys friends or its just from observation... but sometimes I get confused again. So I got bored like usual and did some reading. I decide to go to Search Your Love and i read this article titled Men & Women: differences

What I have learned over the years is that men and women have different values, priotires, and habits.

Men grasp a situation as a whole and think globally, while women think locally, relying on details and feelings.

- Men are builders and creators. They take risks and experiment, while women select the most valuable knowledge and pass it over to the next generation.

- Men are more independent in their thoughts and actions, while women follow the ideas or suggestions of a friend (GUILTY)

- Women’s self-appraisal is lower than that of men. Women tend to criticize themselves, while men are more satisfied with their own performance.

- Men and women have different sources of satisfaction.
MEN - career and prosperity
WOMEN - family and kids.

- Men have a pronounced need to fulfill their goals, and women rank relationships with others first.

- Men get sick twice as often as women, although women tend to be more concerned about their health.

- Women take pain and loads of work better than men. (very true)

---> Overall I understand and respect men... they are very interestingly sexy creatures that I wish to learn more and get to know more

Ash.Jak

Daddy's Little Girl all GROWN UP

Ok so I begin writing this letter at the end of our Father's Day service at church . I got inspired...

I dedicated this letter to all the fathers, to-be fathers, and future fathers. I titled it Daddy's Little Girl.

Dear Dad,

I <3 you. Sometimes it is hard for me to say that cause I feel like I still don't know you. I hear from you every other month, kinda around midterm season or BIG EVENTS in my life (Lord...next in line is my college gradution but that's December.. Thank God). I have grown to be use to that (Even tho i hate it, with a passion). I kinda put up with it cause I feel I have to and should be thankful that I actually know who you are . Some say not having a relationship with your father can be a big impact on your life, I would have to agree, especially for this young woman :-)

I remember that time on the phone when you tried to talk to me about SEX... lol I was 18 years old actually :-)... i know pretty much about "the DO" thanks to pastors, youth ministers, "big brothers", and crazy guy friends over the years. LOL I also remember when you taught me how to use a leaf blower... but that's about it (Well, that's what I thought). But you know something, Dad you have taught me something.... :-) so you don't have to be mad or sad about not teaching me anything all these years.

At the age of 22, Dad I have learned how to be more patience, observant and thankful for the Men of God that God has put in my place to show me how fathers and MEN are suppose to act or treat their daughters. I value the friendships that I have growth over the years, watching these fathers take care of the kids, especially their baby girls. All this time I thought it didnt matter to me about being Daddy's lil girl... but it really did. And I know I am... I'm GOD's GIRL

I use to fear talking to men because I really didn't understand them because I really didnt understand who you were. Everytime I would get close to a man I would freeze up in fear, it's like I wanted to be myself but I just didnt know what to say or how to say it until I found out who I was and i stopped caring so much about the way I was preceived. When women are young or old, they are always looking and search for that special someone to tell them that they are beautiful, that special someone should be your father. So many young women look to other men or boys to validate them because they don't hear that in the household from other than a female which is theur mother or sister... it's not the same at all.

Dad I thank you because I can freely say that you have done a great job. Well, you have taught me the importance of communicate, when I am dating someone or trying to get to know someone communicatin is key. I don't want a distant relationship with anybody that is why I value communicate so much.

And just so you know and you probably already know because you told me that you check out my facebook time to time. I am doing fine, I'm alive children I have none.. not even five. I'm doing good actually I'm doing great becaue I am protected in my Daddy God's grace.

"It is much easier to become a father than to be one." ~Kent Nerbuwrn

Love,

Ashleah Symone Jackson


--> I wrote this letter to express how much I feel that it is important for Fathers to have a relationship with their children especially their young girls. There are too many young girls doing their own things and search out there in the world for some man to show them love... that man first an formost should be there father... then the search party will be over.

Men & Women Psychology according to Dave Chapelle

Ok, so I have a couple things on my mind and I needed a laugh so I turned to 1 of my favorite comedians. I love Dave Chapelle... and I miss him on the air. Yes, he does have a filthy mouth but he makes so much sense and he cracks me up all the time. Watch this video and comment.

Dave Chapelle - Men and Women Psychology - Very True



I think it is horrible that Men and Women can't get along.
"Chivalry is DEAD... lol"
I'm such a "flower child" but for real tho "Can we all just get along"

Hmm hopefully....

Ok so I was on the bus and i started to daydream and it was raining too... so that gave my mind even more effect so here we go...

YOU

You are on my mind right now
as I sit silently in my window seat
I think of you sitting here, right next to me
While we go on our journeys all over town
with you,
all I can do is smile not frown

With you,
I see long lasting not temporary
But then again what do you see
Hopefully,
it's contemporary
love
Passionate Love
Everlasting Love
Hopefully,
I'm not scaring you, with all this love jazz
cause I really don't mean too
I'm just expressing my feeling
Just being ASH

I'm not use to feeling this way or sort
At 1st it was a bit confusing
But now it feels easy like a playing a fun sport.

Right now, I'm feeling like a dork
You know the ones that giggle and snort

Continually feelings are strong but i like it
I can't help it... i think I'm falling in love

Nah... heck nah. i don't know you bruh
What's your name again?
Where did you come from?

I don't want to move to fast
Or to quick
Cause that's not my speed
I'm use to the slow and steady
The fast lane just might make me sick
but what I can say for now is
I'm enjoying this journey around town
Cause it give me something to think about,
reflect on
hmm maybe this friendship will grow strong

It takes two to tango
And two to keep things going
I can't do this alone,
So we will see what you will start sowing

I Can DO ALL THINGS... so don't hold me back....

Ok so all my life people have been telling me what I can do and what I can't do.. when I was younger I just accepted it. Now that i am grown I don't accept the less. So this goes out to all the people that have ever tried to play me... this is dedicated to ya'll hmm yall just made my inspiration of the day.

Hey You
Yeah, I'm talking to YOU
YOU think YOU know so much
But actually YOU know too little
YOU think YOU can tell me what I can or can't do...
Who do you think you are
Yeah thing look hazy right now but baby I'm gonna get far.

You can't tell me nothing
cause i want take YOU CAN'T for no answer

YOU want me to fail but I keep rising
and surviving
I keep standing
Nobodies gonna push me down
or make me frown
cause of some circumstances and jazz
I really wish I could tell all of y'all to kiss my ______ _____ _____
But that's not lady like
I got class
I'm more then that
Immma lady

I am about my bizness
and getting things done
It might not be in your timing
or within your schedule
But it will be done cause
I said so and I mean what I say
So until you stop treat me
or other people. Like me this way
I will always have sometimes to say.

Le' Symone

Into the notebook... you wanna take a look in my book

Into the notebook...

So you want to know
Just ask and you'll get an answer

I'll tell you what you want to hear
so it can appear
that I am giving you what you want

U ask me what's in the notebook
I'll tell you my hopes, my dreams
my cries, my truths & my lies
my likes & dislikes...

And you say "Is that all?"
And I say "Maybe.. You'll just have to wait and see."

What about NOW, you say
And then I say NOW, Right, now
You really want it now.
I doubt you could take it if you tried it...
It's too much of me to hold on too

The hurt, pain, sorrow, & morrow
Some of the pages are drain from tears of the past i shed..
eww the spell of yesterday's tomorrow

The jokes, scribbles, doodles, & thought that u could only understand
if you use your noodle

You tell me I'm willing to take that chance
And I say OK, hmm we will see bout that, Mr Romance...

Open sesame...hmmm here's the pages of my life.. piece by piece... gone head on and read...

TO BE CONTINUED....

_ Le'Symone

What's behind the smile...

The SMILE

She smiles
She grins
She smirks
But what's behind the smile
What's behind the grin
The world may never know
Until she opens up & releases what's deep down in her soul

**************************************************************
2day all I can say is I am pretty DARN happy and my smile is all extra BIG... hmm I wonder why
Listen to this song by Uncle Kracker and find out... lol

WHY so SHY

So this is how I fee....l (I wrote this last night... I had a lot on my mind)

I feel like I am getting to CLOSE
Even though sometimes I feel like a GHOST

I feel like I want MORE
But yet I'm afraid because it's you I ADORE

I feel like jumping for joy cause I've never met someone quite like your BEFORE
But I do it in secret so I want scare you ANYMORE

WHY do I feel like this I ask myself WHY

Because every time I see your face or feel your warm embrace it makes me extremely happy INSIDE

I love this feeling.. You know this feeling but maybe I should tell you more in detail instead of being SO SHY

Me, Myself, & My Thoughts - Part1

Ok so I really need to stop over thinking everything. For some odd reason every time I over think a situation it either makes it worse then it really is or I end up hurting some one that I care about. it's a problem that I am taking action to. FIRST , I got to figure out the cause to why I over think, so much.

Why do I always have to think everything out?
Why must i analyze every situation that come my way?

THEN I must find a solution.

I really want to be a person that goes with the wind or with the flow. I think that will happen once I start back RELAXING again. And I found out that stress kills so I don't want to died any time soon... so I'm getting myself in check ASAP.

What's on my MIND

1) When will this quarter end....
2) Next quarter, I am taking my regular 3 classes but it feels like I am taking 5 classes cause of the SET-UP
3) SAVANNAH!!!!!!!! Is that going to be me new home... Lord speak to me... I guess I just need to GO
4) SPRINGTIME and it's mysterious creatures that attract the eye
5) DRIVING
6) Music & poetry
7) Fashion photo shoots... I got to get on that.. I need business cards but i want them to be cute

Here's a couple little TO BE CONTINUES that I wrote TODAY:

I hear your words
I love your words
But I think you're moving to fast
Lyrical, its just pen and paper
But are you sure these feelings will last
We only known each other for a couple of weeks,
a few days at that
It already feels likes a rush of the heart.
Sorry, but I think I'm gonna have to pass.

*-*-*-*-*-*-**-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*

Sometimes I feel like there is NO answer to the questions that hang above my head.
They make me think for long period of time.
And then my mind goes into its usual Wonderland,
where everything seems so complete
it makes me smile inside and out.

SONG OF THE DAY: Janelle Monae - Locked Inside

This song speaks to me. It has a nice MOTOWN effect that I love... Go head Janelle, getting your MJ on ;-)




VIDEO of THE DAY - Usher featuring Will.i.am - OMG

I absolutely love this video. The dancing is amazing and the song is awesome. My favorite parts is when the girls dance because of that tall blonde Afro chick and then when usher dances with the shadows & then the cigar dance :-)



~AshJak87~

Have you ever.....

Today is such a broad day. I have so much to do today... work then either go to a friend's birthday dinner, Open Mic, or Destinations Spoken Word tonight... but I don't feel like doing anything but go home to chill maybe watch another movie or just rest. HAVE YOU EVER....

Have you ever just felt like not doing work even tho you know it due next week?

Have you ever felt bored even tho you are doing something productive ?

Have you ever notice in every P. Diddy music video, he always flying or flapping his arms as wings?

Have you ever wish upon a star and it came true?

Have you ever dreamed a dream and it happened the very next day?

Have you ever ran away?

Have you ever judge a book by it's cover?

Have you ever been afraid to tell the truth?



~AshJak~

Drake - Find Your Love music video

OK so I just saw the Find Your Love music video. It was actually beautiful but sad. I don't know. what y'all think

Alicia Keys - Unthinkable (Official Video with Lyrics) [HQ]

OMG, so I been dreadfully waiting for this Alicia Keys music video for "Unthinkable." I like it but I want more.... it does have my ONE TREE HILL Heart throb Chad Michael Murray, but I still want more from this song. Watch and tell me what you think.

Song of the MOMENT

Right now, I am pretty darn happy. This songs express what I'm feeling right now.

Drake - Find Your Love Produced by Kanye West



The song is really catchy.... I really love the repeative "Hey Hey" and the "I better find your loving... I better find your heart.." This song is so sweet... it's special and the beat is SUPER HOTT. So far I have listen to this song about 7 times and counting ;-)

~ASHJak~

I Found a dollar Hey!! Hey!! Hey!!!

Okay so I'm pretty happy this morning. The sun is out and the wind is about but there's a stinky odor on the bus and it won't disappear... my stuffed up nose is screaming WHY!!! WHY!!!! Like Michael Jackson.  OMG a nosey need deserves puffs indeed... Guess what I have no tissue at all... This is unfair but anyways...

Random Thoughts for the moment

* I got a dollar... I got dollar..I got a dollar hey hay hey..I found a dollar on the ground... I haven't done that in a long time I think I'm gonna save it :-)

* Let's Get it Started by Black Eyed Peas is playing in my head.."and the bass keeps running, running and running, running, and..."

* I love looking at people's shoes.... it kinda express who the person is... like me I like comfortable flats & high platform wedges... hmm who am I cause that is kinda a contrast.

* Aia Dude sitting in front of me can really draw but he's hard on his self.. I guess we all are when it comes to our #1 craft :-D

~Ashleah S. Jackson~

On the Move...

So this is how I feel...

I wish I would have stayed home snuggled up in my bed cause I was having a sweet dream even though I can't remember anything that happened.  All I know is I woke up with a huge grin on my face that right now won't erase. I wish I was home but I'm not... I'm gone to the bus stop to start my day out, get to meet a girl and a guy for a PSA... hmm I wonder what that's all about. Overall I'm pretty happy about the opportunities that are coming my way for 20-10. I'm feeled with JOY that I'm gonna be able to do music & fashion, my lovies. Lord how mercy I am such a working woman and I love it...I love being on the move but then I be wanting to rest back at my spot snuggled up in my bed... hmm what was that dream about?

~Ashleah S. Jackson~

Random Thoughts for the Minute

Everyday I wake up, I always wake up with a song on my heart tell me why, I woke up to H-Town Boys "Knockin the Boots" !?! I don't know why because I don't even know the words to the song... I just know the chorus like everybody else... and that's what's stuck in my head. You know the part when the guy that sounds like Jamie Foxx sings "Just give me some GOOD love"...I like the way he sings it and that's what's stuck in my brain. I'm really into musicians & creative guys :-) Buy anyways....

Random Thoughts for TODAY

* Eww, this dude keeps on coughing and spitting, it's nasty.. he needs a spit cup

* I kind of want a tattoo but then I think about the pain and I say NAY

* I'm getting my nose pierced but I want to get everything settled with my car first... sorry Disa Kelly

* I want breakfast but, it's probably too late to run across the street, so I'm gonna stay put.

* Today is such a lovely day, I hope I don't get stuck in a lab all day

* Some people make me want to fight like for example why this man keep on spitting eww yuck.. ya nasty

~Ashleah S. Jackson~

Creative people are ALL Around US

OK so today is a pretty interesting day... right now I am just chilling at the school before I go to work listening to Christina Aguilera new single "Not Myself Tonight"(Clean Version)on myspace.com. It has a nice techno sound to it, the only thing I don't like is that line where she says "I’m kissing all the boys and the girls"... I'm like dang Christina you too, why? But anyways her new album Bionic will be here June 8... I am excited.

But anyways, let me tell you what happen today, so I found $5 in my wallet and I got happy. I was like yay... Breakfast!!! Chikfila here i come...So I went and I got my chicken biscuit, OJ, and hash browns. And then it happen... So a older man, i would say he was probably my mom's age... so that's bad. Well, he told me he liked my hair and I told him thank you and then he said actually I like everything about u and I gave him the Oh.. OK... and then I kept eating my breakfast, I wasn't gonna let this weird old man ruin my breakfast, so I kept eating.

Then he asked me if I attended the Art Institute of Atlanta and I said yes. And he said he could tell I was an art student cause of my colors & my hair and in my head I was like do I have an invisible sticky note on my forehead that literally says "Hi,I am an art student". And then he asked me my major and I told him it was "fashion" and he was like that's correct and I gave him the Oh OK again. And that's when he told me he was a designer, of course i didn't believe him cause of his approach & how he was dressed. But he was really a designer, he had proof!!!! But he still was scary tho..

It's crazy how many creative people their are in Atlanta over the age of 30, that don't have the teaching & knowledge... it's more like street knowledge... but you need more than that to get ahead in the world. So Boys & Girls stay in School... don't give up on your dreams.

Ok now what was my point.... oh yeah creative people come in all shapes and sizes and def in all ways of life.

~Ash.Jak~

All Smiles Here

So Today is a good day!!!
I'm actually excited about 2day and that all I really have to say lol

Fast Day 1

FAST Day 1

So I ended up serving in the nursery on New Years Eve, like last year... it was fun of course but kinda tiring. The whole night I was eating fating foods until 12 a.m. that was fun too. I got a couple of HAPPY NEW YEAR texts too.... my phone is still OFF which is kinda DEPRESSING. Right now I don't feel like talking to anyone but, it's just the sense of having your phone on... paying bills.

Today all I ate was beans & rice.... a bagel... 2 turkey sandwiches.... I saw all these commerical on tv advertising pizza & candy (which are my favorites)... and I told myself NO can't have that greasy me... and I am gonna stick to it.

Today I finally finished I Kissed Dating Goodbye by Joshua Harris which is a great book... Tomorrow I am gonna start his other book Boy Meets Girl... I am excited

Ash.Jak