Love is thinking of OTHERS,,, Lust is thinking of YOURSELF

Okay, so today was a GREAT DAY... mainly because I claimed it in advance and I stayed positive the whole day long... such a big surprise but I progressed. Yep, many things did happen to try to turn my smile upside down but I kept it flowing. But anyways, let me tell you bout my day:

Okay I am gonna start with what I learned today, this is mainly what my blog is about

Today was my first day back at Aia for Fall, the first class I had today was my Critical Thinking class AKA Thinking Critically. At first, I didn't think I was going to enjoy this class but my teacher soon changed my mind when he said this statement :

"Love is the willing of the greater good towards another" - says my teacher.

And I agree with his one hundred percent. Mainly because we as people have butchered LOVE into something selfish which is actually not LOVE at all it LUST.

Love is something self- less... something that is suppose to benefit the other person... not you alone. Well, I have to go be productive and finish my Thinking Critically homework. Later.

TO BE CONTINUE

~Ash.Jak~

Day3 - Morning Favor

It's unbelivable how God's works and how the devil always out to defeat God's Best.  Well all I know is I have the favor of the Lord...okay we all have it cause we are his children but I really have it cause:

This morning I set my room alarm for 5 A.M. and my cellphone alarm was already preset for 4:30 A.M. but that's another story and I will get to that soon... but anyways yes I woke up on time but I still was laying down talking to God saying ten more hours please...but no had to get up for class presentation day for Retail Operations... and what took the longest was morfing my short afro into a decent shape (can't wait till it grows...patience of virtue) and picking something appropriate to where for a presentation... and it took me long...like for example what I have on is cute but I would have really done a pencil skirt instead of a flair...oh well...shopping spree in the making...but back on subject.. I left the house at 6:15 A.M., my bus leaves the mall at 6:15 A.M. I only live about 5 minutes away from the mall meaning I would have miss my bus... by I didn't cause I got that FAVOR.

When people come into my life, I know they either are coming for a reason, season, such a time as thing, or a lifetime.  Some people even come into your life to warning you about what is to come.  People come into your life for numerous of reason and those...majority of them I have favor with....blessings are always coming my way and they can come yours too.

Keys to FAVOR
+ Stay CONNECTED...not only with God but with PEOPLE
+ Be FRIENDLY...MEET & GREET
+ Be KIND and GENEROUS..Give and it 
+ Love everybody...well at least try.

Keep the FAITH, don't let nobody and said nobody get down.

~AshJak87~

Day2

So today actually was a GOOD day.  I didn't get to go to practice like I wanted to but there's always next week and the week after.  I'm really trying to get back into things that I love... but here's the thing I don't really miss the choir....I miss singing personally.  Today I really have been singing all day.  Me and one of my friends actually entered a contest at the mall. I song the Cotton jingle... "the touch, the feel, the fabric of our lives...." Remember that...it used to be one of my favorite jingles as a kids...along with "We love to see u smile" but yeah I'm singing again.  It's crazy how singing makes me happy and I just hate to hide or just put it under a rock and let it rest for a moment.

On Sunday, the day I agreed to do the 30 Day ... my mom was talking about people in the church and in the work field needing to be where they suppose to be... and then she started talking bout the choir and me...and of course the nursery.  She told me that I have made the nuresy my little shelter/hide away...and I have gotten too comfortable where I am and I needed to step out my comfort zone (hiding behind my smile).  And that is exactly what I am aiming to do.

My goals are basicly:
+ Get Organization
+ Stay Focus
+ Stay Determine
+ Do what I love (passionate)
+ Be confident
+ Stay motivated

Since I have a great support team I don't think this will be a problem.

~Ash.Jak87~

DAY1

So Right now I am waiting at Perimeter with the elderly for my Chickfila...I really should have got my behind on the train like I was suppose to and just got my breakfast at the one by the school they would have been open I bet..but what time does Chickfila actually, I don't know, all I know is when I get my food I am grubbing and jetting because I have to get to school in enough time to be able to my work but anyways.

This Morning I am feeling pretty good...I guess.
I'm trying to smile but I really don't feel like it...like Last night I really didn't feel like being at work... I was all like Why am I here...why are we here... can we all just go home...It's the day before Labor Day... I was really trippin last night.

And then last night I came clean about everything was going on with me to my boyfriend/best friend in whole wide world.  It feels good now that I have told him everything... but I still feel horrible cause I disappointed him as a friend and as a girlfriend.

This whole relationship is extremely tough when u are:
* Out of state
* Best friends
* Really care about each other

It's hard and usually I'm not up for a challenge like this but when it comes to him I willing to keep trying
He is!! It's crazy but I had it all set in my mind that we were gonna break up... I was all prepared for the negative cause that's all there was.

Well it's over now I learn to be mindful of who you open your heart to... and I am mindful of also who I let into my circle of friends.  For these 30 days, I really don't care about staying in contact with peoplew because I really need to get myself together... I was to be a better me, God, my family & friends, and my boyfriend.

~Ash.Jak87~

Sorry boo I'm taken

Okay so this is what I don't get or understand....

Okay, so August the 3rd will make it a whole month for me and J and I am so excited.  I never been with a guy that long... and my so-called friendship with T don't count cause we were only friends... matter fact we still only friends... I am gonna miss him at work...but oh well time to move on.  

But anyways here's the thing... maybe it's me or can be just what it is, but every since I started dating J, guys that I used to be into have started approaching me.  I'm like when I was completely SINGLE... y'all didnt want me... you guys just wanted to be friends and that's all and all of a sudden you want to take me out and but me lunch and stuff cause I got the glow... we I have been using a new moisturizer lol but for real tho I have and its great lol... but nah I really like J and I don't want anyone or myself to miss this up.  But I still still don't get it so help

~Ash.jak~

The IT

Okay, this is how I know I got it bad when I can't stop thinking bout IT all day.  Maybe the whole reason why I can't get IT out my head is because I didn't refresh my mind with a good peaceful sleep last night... I actually just took a short hour nap and my mind was still own IT.  I got to put a stop to all of this cause I am starting to get hooked on IT and I'm not ready for all of that... actually but I'm not on that LEVEL yet darn.

I remember being the one that would tell my girls thart its easy being single and I had no wants or heavy desires for IT .. but now that I'm in a relationship, my affection for IT is a little different.  Now I want IT bad... IT started as a future desire and now is a right now. any where... any time crave... that I must put on a permanent leash until I get this thing call FLESH under control.

Dang I want to share my IT... with the RIGHT PERSON... but I don't want to rush nothing... that's why I am patiencely waiting on IT for when 2 becomes one in matrimony.

So I need to stop all the secret downlow reading literture of IT and experiencing with IT pleasures... I don't want to start nothing I can't finish without getting hooked... no addictions in the name of Jesus... I'm new to this... I was to be true to this... in the future.

Patiencely waiting,

*Ash.Jak*

Live 4 2day & 2morrow

Okay. So...so far. So good. Today is a really good day. I am finally bout to got to work. Ready to get my day started. I'm ready to brighten somebodies day with a smile and a "can I help you find something,"... so excited. But anyways, while I was waiting for the bus, I met this young man, that I believe has to be at least 27 or maybe 31. This man was a nice good looking man who is married to a gorgeous wife with 8 kids... yes I said it lol. Six girls and two boys, no duplicates... I was like wow, that's amazing to be that young with kids. And also he was reading his bible, which displays he's a man of God.

But anyways the reason why I title this blog "Live 4 2day & 2morrow"... is because yeah 4 + 2+ 2 = 8... but it's more to it. Lol This young man is taking care of business... He has his faith in God, a good job, wife, kids... and a great life.... Today is for himself and wife... Tomorrow is for the kids... because whatever he does today with effect those kids tomorrow cause he's their daddy.

Live your Dreams and dream big. Do whatever you put your mind, soul, heart,and spirit too. If you want to do something.. follow Nike and just do it. But most importantly live your life for God

OMG Why am I so curious

Okay I am the type of girl that wants to know everything and about everything. I don't want anything hidden from me... I hate secrets... cause I automatically want to know... what's going on. OMG I don't know why I am so curious... but I am. I guess the reason for my curiosity is I just want to be in the know... there are so many things that I don't know... there are so many things that I have seen... that I want to see... that really excites me. It's crazy cause my curiosity can either do me good or just plain old get me in trouble.

Like for today... lately I been going thru alot of changes... and I mean changes. And I got this little zanzy little phone that you can freakin do everything on... it's a cool TOP NOTCH phone that I cherish and is very thankful to have... Thanks YP... love ya girl... but anyways I was on youtube and like I am always looking up random things... and having fun with it too. But this time, I look up 1 Guy 1 Cup.... If you haven't heard of this mess... good and don't google it either... it's nasty horrible. I didn't watch the video... I just watched people's reactions to the video... and it frightened me... but here the thing... even though I was freakin scared I still want to watch the freakin video. lol

When we start think on things such as desires... our mind, soul, and body which equals are flesh... start to hunger for more. It's crazy that I am finally getting it. But I am .

That's just how I feeel,

*Ash.Jak*