Sorry boo I'm taken

Okay so this is what I don't get or understand....

Okay, so August the 3rd will make it a whole month for me and J and I am so excited.  I never been with a guy that long... and my so-called friendship with T don't count cause we were only friends... matter fact we still only friends... I am gonna miss him at work...but oh well time to move on.  

But anyways here's the thing... maybe it's me or can be just what it is, but every since I started dating J, guys that I used to be into have started approaching me.  I'm like when I was completely SINGLE... y'all didnt want me... you guys just wanted to be friends and that's all and all of a sudden you want to take me out and but me lunch and stuff cause I got the glow... we I have been using a new moisturizer lol but for real tho I have and its great lol... but nah I really like J and I don't want anyone or myself to miss this up.  But I still still don't get it so help

~Ash.jak~

The IT

Okay, this is how I know I got it bad when I can't stop thinking bout IT all day.  Maybe the whole reason why I can't get IT out my head is because I didn't refresh my mind with a good peaceful sleep last night... I actually just took a short hour nap and my mind was still own IT.  I got to put a stop to all of this cause I am starting to get hooked on IT and I'm not ready for all of that... actually but I'm not on that LEVEL yet darn.

I remember being the one that would tell my girls thart its easy being single and I had no wants or heavy desires for IT .. but now that I'm in a relationship, my affection for IT is a little different.  Now I want IT bad... IT started as a future desire and now is a right now. any where... any time crave... that I must put on a permanent leash until I get this thing call FLESH under control.

Dang I want to share my IT... with the RIGHT PERSON... but I don't want to rush nothing... that's why I am patiencely waiting on IT for when 2 becomes one in matrimony.

So I need to stop all the secret downlow reading literture of IT and experiencing with IT pleasures... I don't want to start nothing I can't finish without getting hooked... no addictions in the name of Jesus... I'm new to this... I was to be true to this... in the future.

Patiencely waiting,

*Ash.Jak*

Live 4 2day & 2morrow

Okay. So...so far. So good. Today is a really good day. I am finally bout to got to work. Ready to get my day started. I'm ready to brighten somebodies day with a smile and a "can I help you find something,"... so excited. But anyways, while I was waiting for the bus, I met this young man, that I believe has to be at least 27 or maybe 31. This man was a nice good looking man who is married to a gorgeous wife with 8 kids... yes I said it lol. Six girls and two boys, no duplicates... I was like wow, that's amazing to be that young with kids. And also he was reading his bible, which displays he's a man of God.

But anyways the reason why I title this blog "Live 4 2day & 2morrow"... is because yeah 4 + 2+ 2 = 8... but it's more to it. Lol This young man is taking care of business... He has his faith in God, a good job, wife, kids... and a great life.... Today is for himself and wife... Tomorrow is for the kids... because whatever he does today with effect those kids tomorrow cause he's their daddy.

Live your Dreams and dream big. Do whatever you put your mind, soul, heart,and spirit too. If you want to do something.. follow Nike and just do it. But most importantly live your life for God

OMG Why am I so curious

Okay I am the type of girl that wants to know everything and about everything. I don't want anything hidden from me... I hate secrets... cause I automatically want to know... what's going on. OMG I don't know why I am so curious... but I am. I guess the reason for my curiosity is I just want to be in the know... there are so many things that I don't know... there are so many things that I have seen... that I want to see... that really excites me. It's crazy cause my curiosity can either do me good or just plain old get me in trouble.

Like for today... lately I been going thru alot of changes... and I mean changes. And I got this little zanzy little phone that you can freakin do everything on... it's a cool TOP NOTCH phone that I cherish and is very thankful to have... Thanks YP... love ya girl... but anyways I was on youtube and like I am always looking up random things... and having fun with it too. But this time, I look up 1 Guy 1 Cup.... If you haven't heard of this mess... good and don't google it either... it's nasty horrible. I didn't watch the video... I just watched people's reactions to the video... and it frightened me... but here the thing... even though I was freakin scared I still want to watch the freakin video. lol

When we start think on things such as desires... our mind, soul, and body which equals are flesh... start to hunger for more. It's crazy that I am finally getting it. But I am .

That's just how I feeel,

*Ash.Jak*