Missing you..

What should I do when I'm missing you
Should I wait till you call me
Or should I call you
Since I'm the one that's feeling lonely
It's not really Loneliness per say
It's just ___________________________
Idk forget it

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Decision Time: To Be Selfish or To Not To Be Selfish.. That is Not a Question

Sometimes when you are making a decision, it best to think of both parties and not just yourself.

I seriously think if people would do that FIRST, it would resist a whole lot of trouble and solve more problems, but that's just my opinion vs the world's opinion thats says Me FIRST, You SECOND to LAST. If people were a bit more understanding and caring it would be a bit more easy to eliminate confusion, actually there probably would be less confusion because both parties would understand what the other person is doing is either for their best interest.

Hmm... or maybe we all should just be selfish and just care about our needs only and none of the other person.

Sounds good to me!!! I just might try it out for a couple days, weeks, or months... or maybe a year... instead of 2011 being the year of "Everything's gonna be Alright,"... I'm gonna change it to "Everything is gonna go my way or it's the highway," What you think? I just made that up on the spot.

Anyways, I'm joking, I'm not changing myself to be like other people and their selfish ways, I'm gonna stay me, caring little me.... I'm just gonna care less about people and more about me.

In other words, I'm gonna Mind my own BUSINESS & stay out of other people business. LoL I know that will help both parties... it's especially gonna help me and that's the best decision ever for me :-)

~Ash~

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I Walk Alone

Right now, I feel so upset with myself. I'm so upset with myself that I am laughing because this is not me.

Have you ever wish you never met person that you have grown close to but not on purpose tho ?

Have you ever made a mistake that you promise yourself that you wouldn't make again?

Do you have any regrets?

Right now, how I am feeling I am regreting meeting one of my friends because I'm starting to feel like the way this person feels & acts with conflict is effecting me and my emotions because their emotions is damage. You know that saying "Misery like company" well that statement seems like it one of my friends favorite quotes because they likes attention and to me that selfish especially when you see that your friend is having a good day and then booom, good day turns sour for no reason at all.

Me & Overthinking - Weeks ago, I examine myself and my overthinking and it had lessed until today... I was fine until I had lunch and then afterwards I started feeling lonely for no reason... I don't get lonely easily cause usually I'm around people and I'm fine but for some odd reason I felt lonely and I was telling myself, that's stupid you have no reason to feel this way and you need to return that trade back to it's owner but the owner couldn't be found.

Anyways, to cut my story short... today I found myself drifting back into overthinking... and I was kinda upset with self over that... yes I'm over beating myself up because I know better but it just heart me because I dont like jumping to conclusions especially if I don't know what's going on.

The Effect of my Overthinking
+ I make things worst
+ I beat up myself about it
+ I hurt my brain with all the non sense thinking

Solution: Don't worry.. Don't second guess... No Mind reading

Decesion: Spend less time on social networks and negetative & unstable friend

---When I make a decision, I keep it especially if it's effecting the way I interact with other people ---

~Ash~

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Hmm hopefully....

Ok so I was on the bus and i started to daydream and it was raining too... so that gave my mind even more effect so here we go...

YOU

You are on my mind right now
as I sit silently in my window seat
I think of you sitting here, right next to me
While we go on our journeys all over town
with you,
all I can do is smile not frown

With you,
I see long lasting not temporary
But then again what do you see
Hopefully,
it's contemporary
love
Passionate Love
Everlasting Love
Hopefully,
I'm not scaring you, with all this love jazz
cause I really don't mean too
I'm just expressing my feeling
Just being ASH

I'm not use to feeling this way or sort
At 1st it was a bit confusing
But now it feels easy like a playing a fun sport.

Right now, I'm feeling like a dork
You know the ones that giggle and snort

Continually feelings are strong but i like it
I can't help it... i think I'm falling in love

Nah... heck nah. i don't know you bruh
What's your name again?
Where did you come from?

I don't want to move to fast
Or to quick
Cause that's not my speed
I'm use to the slow and steady
The fast lane just might make me sick
but what I can say for now is
I'm enjoying this journey around town
Cause it give me something to think about,
reflect on
hmm maybe this friendship will grow strong

It takes two to tango
And two to keep things going
I can't do this alone,
So we will see what you will start sowing