Snow Day #2

So... I'm feeling some kinda of way and I just felt like writing since I'm stuck in the house... all ALONE with my lonesome.  :-P
WINTER
Winter has this random effect on SINGLE people of all ages. Like right now, I should be feeling LONELY & SAD cause I'm at home ALONE & I'm SINGLE but... for some odd reason I'm OKAY. Yes, I will admit I am missing a certain person... I've been missing that person for days and weeks, but I know that person is being taken care of and I shouldn't worry because that person is OKAY :-) Anyways, a question running in my head when I think of being single and the winter time.

1. Why are there so many lonely people in the winter and why are there so many lonely Christmas songs...aka What do the Lonely do at Christmas & Last Christmas I gave you my heart but the very next day you gave it away...LOL what's the deal ?

Ok, that's the only question I could think of for now.... lol cause my mind is in a bunch of other places.
What's on My Mind

• When is the snow going to melt, I got things to do
• This is my last quarter at Aia, I'm excited for my next step in my life but I'm really gonna miss being in school.. I've met a lot of cool people & I have learned a lot being there
• I'm hungry & what some CHEESE pizza with some chi tea or that sparkling pink lemonade from Target but I'm FASTING for 21 days.. so far so good tho
• I want to go outside & play in the snow but... for some odd reason when I want to go outside everybody & their pets be wanting to stay indoors.. what's up with that?
• I have to past these 2 tests... It just means to much to me & to my life.. Can't wait to get it over with 
• When will I ___________ hmm time will tell
• I want to listen to some of my favorite tunes but it leads my mind to thinking of.........
• I really want some ice cream right now... FASTING
• Jeffery Campbell oh how I love you :-) Your shoes are to live for 
• Subs in the park in the Spring :-)
• I need to get my stuff & business name copy-written before somebody jack me for my paper lol
• I can't wait till I get a REAL job so I can get an apartment... either I'm staying here or I'm moving out of state either to NYC or Cali... we will see... but I am not moving to Texas 

And that's about it.....


Oh yeah last minute thought... Will I ever see him again.. so we can just talk and just maybe... just maybe be friends & just friends... idk Time will tell on that also 


Hmm I think I am gonna study and watch a movie... wish I could have some kettle corn.... FASTING
~Ash~

What's hidden from you is sometimes hidden within you

The Run Around

Run,

Run,

Run,

But you sho can't hide

We run around town

Around and around

To find something

That can't be found

What we are seeking for

Is something that we adore

Even though we have left it behind

The connection has been lost, toss with a cost

Cause we are all ways on the grind

If only we could take the time

To realize

That what we are in search for

Has lived within us for all this time

We need it to survive in this life

To stay alive in this life

But what will we decide

We can either

Decline,

run & hide

Or

Be bold & kind

& forfill what's in design

For us

Trust is a must

It keeps us just

It keeps our mind align

With reality combine

with what's yours & what's mine

Maybe we will find

what's hidden between the lines

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Feelings

Just trying to find my way
Find my way back to safe-tay
where I had that complete protection
and direction
of what to do
or where to go
who to meet
or how to show
my true feelings
upon whatever
or whomever
wants to listen
or pay attention
I have a lot to say
this pain being itchin
me
to speak
up for me
so I can let all know
how i feel about what all is going on
around we
Gotta some changes to make ya know
so Let's go

Finally... Finish.. I have so many more drafts to go

Ok so when I write majority of my poetry are TO BE CONTINUED or left with some type of of cliffhanger... wait aint that the same thing.  Well, anyways I just finished a poem that I was working on in June of last year and I post it in August of last year and I just finished this year.

I know... that's horrible but I had got writer's block & I got distracted by LIFE... whatever.

Here it is :

Tell me what's on your mind

and I will do the same.

If you tell me you're doing fine

then I will know who to blame.

What actually does fine mean ?

All I ask is for you to explain

You say fine is fine,

why do you complain?

I complain

Because...

The truth is all I proclaim

I feel like you are hiding something

which is why I am going insane

You are not the same I tell you

You are not the same

You stare me right in the face

Tell me I need to find a place

So I can chill and calm down

I say ok

But with a frown

I settle down

Thanks Calvin!!!!!

So... This is How I Feel Some Times When I Write!!! 

My friend Calvin Fordham introduced me to SinFest, I think a couple weeks ago but, I never took the time to really looking into any of the comics unless he sent them to me via facebook.  And now I feel like a Sin Fest addict.  Sin Fest is so easy to relate to, even older couples  can relate.   The creator is Tatsuya Ishida, a Japanese American philosopher.  He kinda looks like Slick in the above comic.  Everybody when you get some down time check out sinfest.net when you want to be cheered up.  Ok I'm done for the day with Sin Fest. Thanks Calvin!!!!

Here is a link the beginning of this comic strip 

http://www.sinfest.net/archive_page.php?comicID=139

~Ash~

Unsolved Mysterious

So.. I'm having the most weirdest moment right now.  I'm not thinking about anything but I can't stop laughing and smiling.  Oh my Lord, what is wrong with me? I wish I knew why I was laughing and smiling so hard but I don't.  Sometimes we as people be wanting to know the answers to every question to solve a problem.  We feel if the problem has some sort of a solution we can conclude it and be the HERO.  But sometimes some problems are just left unsolved... Unsolved Mysterious

~Ash~

Last year I was FEARFUL.. this year I am FIERCE..

It's crazy how sometimes I leap before I think."Live life with no regrets..Really?"  Well, that was back in 2010. This year everything is gonna be alright...

Last year, I ....... this year I..... cause everything is gonna be alright

• Last year, I was fearFUL about everything.... this year I am fearLESS about everything cause everything is gonna be alright.
• Last year, I took upon a load that well I couldn't bare... this year I am only going to take things one at a time its all gonna get done cause everything gonna be alright.
• Last year, I swear I was SUPERWOMAN, trying to help everyone with an issue but forgetting about myself... this year ME comes 1st so I won't end up a CATWOMAN...lonely with 30 cats... you folks are just gonna have to deal with that... but I love ya'll tho everything gonna be alright

But for real tho, I can't complain tho.  Last year, was a good year.. it actually was a great year cause I learned alot about life and relationships with people and most of all I learned a lot about me.

What I learned or what was brought back to my remembrance in 2010

• Don't jump to conclusions... wait a minute or 2
• Ask questions & don't be afraid of the answers... it just might be what you are looking for
• Pay attention to detail at all times because you just might need some of that information
• Love makes the world go round but honesty, understanding & communication makes it function properly
• Take a walk on the wild side, it's fun but don't get too buckwild 
• Dreamkillers are the biggest haters 
• FOCUS!!!!

I learned plenty more but I don't want this to be too long... What did you learn back in 2010 and what are you looking forward to this year in 2011?

~Ash~