HELP!!!

Why is it so easy to give up & quit ?
Like right now I feel like throwing in the towel
but my pride won't let me give up.
Man I want to go to NYC so bad
I'm finish with college & NYC would be my next step to getting to my dreams
Someone encourage me

:-/

Right now I feel...

• sad
• mad
• frustrated
• bloated 
• confused
• incomplete

How I want to feel...

• happy
• accomplished
• thankful
• complete

Right now I feel like nobody cares about me.... I feel like the only thing they care about is what they can benefit from me like my time, my love, my attention,. and etc.

I feel like nobody wants me to succeed or get a head in life, they all just want me to stay stagnant & stay in one place but I can't that's not me.

I'm a creative and I must move.... I must visit new places so I can increase my mind & learn more.

I want to be happy but it seems like nobody wants my happiness... they just want me to make them happy & that's it.

IDK